IT'S JUST ME" BY DARRON K. HUMPHREY
Lying here troubling myself with madness on my mind.
Emotionally screwed up in the brain and going insane.
Upset and pissed off at the world.
Is it something I'm not seeing?
Am I going blind?
Intense with anger punishing me;
when I should change.
Mentally not prepared for the harm I'm causing myself.
Moody at times and feeling heartless in the end.
Rage and pain is the pair I'm always dealt.
My temper allows my demons to come in and seek revenge.
At times I feel like a maniac, "in joust" with "I don't know who".
Out of control, holding a grudge, furiously feeling violent,
Deceiving myself to believe that I don't have a clue of what to do.
No one to talk to so my brain races while I stay silent.
My time running out; I'm growing grey and getting weak at the knees.
Is stress taking me down?
Is it psychological?
It's just me?
I don't know what's happening to me.
Why I'm so afraid?
Why I'm turning in circles with nobody around?
My days seem like night all through the week.
Dark and misty with cloudy fog,
where it's hard to focus or peek.
The life I'm living don't add up to what I imagine.
A loner, wondering around in his own domain,
Just to create happiness with himself by change.
This man has to have spiritual morals intact in his chapter,
The true essence of life and what he may be after.
Short of others presence, and lack of communications with lost souls,
Being anti-social is a depression,
but also a method to my destination and soul.
I'm going to make it,
I'm going to survive.
I'm shooting to the top
eventually my rainy days got to stop.
"When it do", There will be nothing but light,
a glow around me, where my darkness turns bright.
Then you'll witness true power and see,
How God blessed and showed
The Strength Within Me....
By Darron K. Humphrey
My name is Darron Humphrey. Writing has been my entire life. Starting with poetry to music then novels, I branch off to writing movie scripts and sitcoms. As of 2012 I released my first Reality Show- "If I Had A Video". Welcome to writers lane at REALITY POET